Plans

School is ending, so it is time to make plans for summer and fall! So far what I have planned - I am hopefully getting a morning job at Zumiez in the mall, where I can work until the afternoon and then start working at Wingers around four. So basically I will be working my butt off, in order to save up a sufficient amount of money to pay for living expenses while I am away from home. In late July, Whitney and I are moving to St. George to go to school. This will be scary living away from home, but at the same time it is a life-experience that I need to have. Eventually we all need to grow up, and I think this will be a good thing.
There is something plaguing my life right now, and it is the issue of BOYS. I recently 'dear johned' my missionary (in a sense). I just told him that I don't think it's fair that a 17 year old can't date around and have fun. And he didn't take it well. I wish I knew what he was thinking and how he was doing. There is no easy way to be away from the guy you love, but those two years are for growing, and its hard to grow if you are being held down. When he gets back, it things go like I hope, everything will workout between him and I and we can hopefully get married. But it's not just one boy that is worrying my head. My ex-boyfriend recently send me an email on Facebook, asking me how I was doing and telling me that I was on his mind a lot and that he missed me and wished we could hang out more often. Its hard. I miss Jacob, but we have gone separate ways. You may think now that I am desperately trying to push every single half decent guy away from my emotions, but thats not true. I am dating a guy named Stanford, and he is AMAZING!!! I was up really late last night finishing a project for Creative Writing, and guess who was with me the whole evening, organizing papers? Yeah, Stanford. He is amazing! He is smart, organized, cool, talented, dedicated and romantic. We've been good friends for about six years, and just started dating. Hopefully this summer with him will be a good one :)
So I guess even though a million things can be wrong in your life, there is always that one thing you can find that makes it worth all the heartache. :)